Sensitive Soul

When I did depression, I would sometimes just be angry for no apparent reason. Sometimes I would just look at someone and want to yell at them. I wanted to put them down. Maybe I thought they were dressed dumb. Maybe I thought they looked stupid or doing something stupid. I would get filled with hate.
AND THEN
I created a system that changed everything. Those yell at other people or even things for no real reason are now behind me. The system can be found here: https://lylcoach.lchlegacy.com/

When I did depression, I would cry because I could not hold it in anymore. It would happen a lot in the morning (mourning). At my worst, life was in a downward spiral. This lasted for ten years. I was so tired of trying. I wanted nothing but peace and quiet. I was so overwhelmed that I could not do anything.
AND THEN
I created my own system to get better. It was simple. Sure, it took some effort, but it was so worth it. You can do it too if you want. You can find it here: https://lylcoach.lchlegacy.com/

When you struggle with depression, just about anything can set you off. I can remember a day when I had a time trying to get a pair of shorts off. I went into a rage. Yes, that was all it took. I yelled at a pair of shorts for a few minutes because I could not get them off. I don’t know why I had trouble. Maybe I tried to take them off without taking off my shoes. That is the most likely reason. But it was certainly not worth getting all bent out of shape over.
I have those days behind me. I did depression for nearly 40 years. I created my own system for help. You can find help here:
https://lylcoach.lchlegacy.com/

Doing depression is being frustrated often. I can remember times of being so frustrated. At one time, I wanted to do remote work. But I did not think I had any skills to do it. I had little office experience even though I still did have my own company that I managed. I got so discouraged that I did not even try to do any remote work. I felt that I would be rejected. Who would hire me? I thought no one. And a big part of that was that I had low self-esteem. It was so low that I did not think I had anything to offer. This is the result of depression. https://lylcoach.lchlegacy.com/

One of the things that people who struggle with depression often do is to stop doing personal care and hygiene. They don’t bathe, brush their hair, or brush their teeth. This happens because they stop caring. They don’t care how they look, how they smell, or their general health. They don’t care about their clothes. Are they clean or dirty or even torn? It does not matter. They also change their eating habits. They eat more. They eat less. They eat a lot of sweets. They also stop a lot of activity. They don’t exercise.

This all happens when they just don’t care about them. They feel unworthy. They feel less than other people. They feel broken. They feel defeated in life. They feel all alone. Once someone gets to this stage, they need help more than ever.

Life should be experienced as happy, healthy, joyful, fearless, loving and alive. If not, you need to get to this point or sense of being. Help is here: https://lylcoach.lchlegacy.com/

I know what it is to get overly frustrated. I know what it is to go out of your mind over something simple. When I struggled with depression, if I lost a sock after doing laundry, I would go crazy searching for it. I could not rest until I found it. That is really silly. A lost sock will eventually show up. It is not worth getting all nuts over it. It is not worth raising your blood pressure or risk a heart attack. Have you ever become silly in looking for something like a missing sock? Would you like to change that habit? You can. Guidance is found here: https://lylcoach.lchlegacy.com/

Have you ever been upset by a FB meme? Someone has posted a meme and it makes life seem so easy. Just _____ and life will be great.
These sort of memes bug me so much. First of all, it isn’t normally so easy to do what they say to do. It is suggested that everyone who sees it will automatically know how to do what it says. They don’t give instructions on how to do it. And for people who struggle with depression, it will often make them feel worse. Why? Because you want to be able to change, but you don’t know how to and you feel less than other people. You think other people can do this and I can’t. If you want to change and need guidance you can find it here: https://lylcoach.lchlegacy.com/

So you are having what you may call a depressive episode. You are not in a good way mentally. The people in your life try to cheer you up. If you are anything like me when I was struggling with depression, my thought is “please don’t”. Then I fake a smile and say something nice to show my appreciation. I appreciated the effort, but it was not helpful. Am I right?
The problem is that they don’t get it, and think you just feel a little bummed out or something.They know what will help them so they try to help you the way that would be helpful to them. They think doing something fun will help. Maybe some exercise will help. How about a nice massage? Right? All of this makes you feel as if you just don’t fit in. You feel different. You long to feel this way. You really wish that their ideas will make you feel better.
You can feel this way. It takes a little effort, but you can fit in. I did depression for nearly 40 years. I have an understanding of it. I understand me. I understand you. Help can be found here:
https://lylcoach.lchlegacy.com/

Is it hard to open up to people because they do not understand your depression? There is a lot of confusion about what it is and what it is not. I share things really easily. I don’t know why it is really easy for me to share. I don’t have that need to feel safe. I guess I am comfortable with who I am.
BUT
I did say the wrong thing once. And my best friend said that I was being influenced by the devil. I am not. Depression or anxiety or anything similar has nothing to do with being possessed. Ever since I have been very guarded with what I share with her.
Maybe you all feel that way. Do you feel guarded because you feel you will be thought of in a negative light? That is a legitimate fear.

But it is all based on a general misunderstanding about what depression is and is not. It is not mental illness. It can be controlled.
I helped me. I can help you. Help is here: https://lylcoach.lchlegacy.com/

When it comes to depression, people shut down. They do because they don’t want to talk to someone who doesn’t understand. People who do not understand try to help, but they more often than not say the wrong or not helpful thing. They see life from their perspective and say what would help them. It takes having struggled with depression and conquering it to understand what to say and what not to say. This is why I believe that most counselors or therapists can’t help. They have not been through it. It takes more than empathy. I did depression for nearly 40 years. I have risen above it. Help is available here: https://lylcoach.lchlegacy.com/